Am I Really Ready for a Relationship??

Hey Hey Hey! Happy Memorial Day! I do want to start off on a different note. I want to thank those who volunteer to protect our freedom here in the U.S. Personally, my couzo Laurise and family. Also, my brother from another Monk and friend Terrence. Thank you all for your service!


Now to the real topic. Grab a seat and some tea..lol
So I was debating whether I should talk to you all about this recent turn of events. But it is a part of my journey and I have to be real with you guys. I hope I dont get the judgmental comments, calls or texts. lol. So I have been talking to someone for the past few weeks. He is a kool guy. He's a little rough around the edges. LOL but I'll get deep into all that in my next post. What I do want to talk about today though is my reluctance to fully open up and to participate in this new adventure.

What I mean is. I really love my single season. I love the peace and contentment. I love just waking up and talking to God. I love going through my day with Jesus, talking and learning and growing. I love the ideas and plans he reveals to me. I LOVE MY SINGLE SEASON. I really love not having to worry about someone else. Not having to worry about someones feelings and about their issues. So in this new venture, I almost seem stand offish sometimes. Its really because I just don't want to care. Gosh, that seems so un-Christ like and mean. You guys know, I have been running away from this season for so long. The devil tried to keep me busy from this season but now that I'm here, I don't know how I will ever leave. I still have a strong desire to marry but I just don't know you guys.

Its like I'm with God. I can hear him. I can feel him. I read his word and its true meanings are revealed to me. I've been changed. No more hurt and bitterness. Things that use to bother me roll off me like water. Even my bad days are filled with Gods presence. I can't even stay upset for a full day. I never thought I would find this peace. You guys, who have followed my blog know the frustrations and pain and struggles I've dealt with. But here I am in peace. Everything is not okay. I'm still praying a husband, for advancement in my career ( a better job..lol), TO FINISH MY MASTERS!! (Jesus please..lol) I clearly am still struggling in some areas but I have a peace of mind about it all. I believe that God is working on my behalf. I have heard and seen his great plans for my future.

SideNote:
My generation usually goes for a ready made man. The girls don't want to work with a man and build with him. They want a complete package up front. And guys too. As a Christian, should I be okay with being with someone whom I have to build with. ( meaning he has to work on his career, education , finances, and emotions etc)? Or should I wait for the complete package man? Help a sistah out guys! :)

Love Ya to Peace,
Faith.Loves

The Day I received the Holy Spirit

I'm not going to sugar coat or ease into this convo. My first encounter with the Holy Spirit within me was not  fairytale or this sweet beautiful image that many believe. It was tough and I cried and my heart broke. My physical body shut down. One thing though. When it happened to me I immediately knew it was the Holy Spirit. There was NO CONFUSIONS about it. 

I wrote about it before in a previous blog. I had sex with my ex and towards the end. My body just shut down. Everything hurt. I cried and could not stop. I ran outta there so fast. There are no words to  fully describe how heartbreaking ( literally), gasping for air. Head spinning. The only thing I could utter was IM SORRY. I sat in my car and cried, gasping for air trying to say out loud. I'm sorry. forgive me! That's was my very first realization that there was something greater in me and with me always. Parents, friends, no one was around. But God saw and said enough Faith! No more of this. I need you! It's time for you and I to spend real time together. 

The Holy Spirit is more than speaking in tongues, shouting, and dancing. It's living righteously before God. It's being saved by Christ Jesus and acting accordingly. Many are so hyped up about speaking in an unknown language that they don't get the foundation of it all. Belief, Submission, and Repentance. Be filled TRULY with the Holy Spirit! 

Love Ya to Peace,

Faith.Loves 

The Vow

Hello Beautiful People!

I pray you all are doing wonderful and are blessed. Its been a few days and boy do we need to chat! So I've recently been talking to ( just friends) someone from my past. I'm still very cautious of people because I am a Christian set out to truly live God's way. I know the enemy can use anyone to trip me up so I have to be on my toes. Guard your Heart- Proverbs 4:23

But this feels different. I don't feel weak or easily manipulated. I have a strength that I've never felt before. You all know my covenant with God not to have sex before marriage. Well that has been a hot topic. I haven't been pressured or anything like that but its interesting to hear other peoples view on it. Some people see it as holding out a prize and only winning it when you get married. Others feel that if you can stay without sex while (dating/courting) you can still do without it in marriage. And then there are the ones that see it only as a way to have children and do not think it should be had in pleasure during marriage ( CRAY CRAY...I Know).

I vowed to God that I would not have sex again until marriage because 1. God requires it 2. God established it perfectly. In marriage (Gods way) there is protection, and intimacy known only between the two of you. There is love and then the fruits of that love which is children. When your dating and having sex, there is great element of error; unplanned pregnancy, sexually transmitted diseases, EMOTIONAL WRECKAGE and many more things. But in marriage Gods way, you both protect each other, mentally, emotionally, Spiritually and physically.

This is a very difficult vow to make and keep. Honestly, it wasn't until I linked up with this person again that I realized the vow is not only hard for me but for whoever it is that I am courting with. That person is apart of the vow as well. He may not hold as high as a responsibility as I do before God, since I am the one that made the covenant. But the person, must restrain himself and rebuke temptation and perverseness as well. Nonetheless, we are here living the vow. No matter how long it takes or what happens with courting. The covenant I made with God must be kept. Proverbs 20:25 - Don't trap yourself by making a rash promise to God and only later counting the cost. This is a mighty decision that should not be taken lightly. However, I have seen and heard of the beautiful outcome. I know God's rewards and blessings are far more incredible than precious and rare jewels. More marvelous and wonderful than anything the human mind can fathom. So in conjunction with my vow, I pray that God strengthen and guide the man who courts me and the same for me. That we do not bring ruin upon ourselves by breaking this vow. I pray. So I am asking all of you, as my love story is still  being written and as I share with you all that I learn, think and feel, please keep me in your prayers. Please lift me and whomever God has for me up to the throne in prayer for strength, wisdom and protection.

Love You to Peace,
Faith.Loves

Roses and the Weeds

Good Morning! 

This past week has surely been interesting. It seems I have stepped into a new season of my life. This season is a bit more difficult. Just in this first week alone I have been stressed and paniced. Work, family and love have just been in a tornado. Before it was easy to pray and worship, seek God and hear his word and obey his word. This season is proving to be a mighty test and challenge. But as I always say; God is always God. Alpha and Omega- Beginning and the End. He does not change so I must seek him harder and listen ever more carefully for his voice. Yes, all these new distractions arise (Weeds) but the blessings that are near (Roses) far outweighs the struggles. I want to do a fast from 9am to 5pm for 3 days. I will be praying for strength and guidance through this season and into my blessings. Feel free to do this with me or let me know your request that I may present them to the Lord as well. 

Love ya to peace

Faith.Loves