Busy busy God

Hey loves!

Well it's been a little while since I've posted. It seems that God has been very busy. I'm in a tricky spot right now and I'm praying HARD for guidance. I ask that you all please pray for me as well. 

For the past 5 months, God has been pouring into me and I honestly have been in bliss. Fully engulfed in his presence and not caring or thinking about anything or anyone else. Now, it seems that people are trickling into my life and I'm trying to learn how to balance. How to keep God at the head of my life and remain in his presence but still be able to talk to, help and have time for others. I'm learning but for real guys, I am TERRIFIED of failing God again and leaving his side. I want to always have the fire and desire to always seek God, feel his presence, hear his voice and be obedient to him. I'm afraid of getting distracted. I've left Gods side before and it sucks. It's hurtful and stressful. There is no life there. So I don't want to go back to that. Idk guys. Please keep me in your prayers! 

Love us to peace,

Faith.Loves

This is for the fellas... Strictly for the Fellas

Ya'll remember that song?? LOL.. I'm such a 90s head. I LOVEEEEE 90s music!!!!!

Anyhow before I go off topic. I was sitting here think about a quote I saw- something to the effect of " I can tell a lot about a person based on what they choose to see in me". It got me thinking. I generally try my very best to see the good in people. When I do acknowledge greatness in someone, it grinds my gears when they cannot see it themselves. 

The last guy I was with, clearly had issues. ( ya'll know this well by now) But as I've stated as well before, he has the potential to be a King. He has the potential to be a great leader, an amazing husband and best dad ever! It use to get my blood boiling that he could not see or understand that. The fact that he would act so stupidly and not use his full potential drove me insane.

Have you guys seen the movie 13 Going on 30? The little girl is in the body of the adult and the adult in the body of the young girl? That is what I think goes on with some folks (Some of you guys are young boys in the body of a man). But then there are people like me that see the real. I like to tell people "Don't tell me your dreams and goals if you are not ready to go hard for them".

I could be wrong, but I think that many females, especially those truly seeking God -like me in this sense, were created to be your helpmate. So when you say to us, I want to be President. We will support you and push you, even when you don't want us to. We will be there to realize the dream in your heart and mind. If you want to be a doctor, we will probably study with you and quiz you. We would be up before you with coffee and after you to help you get to bed (or the couch). We will remind you when your slipping off track. And I know ( from experience) that we can push a bit hard. But at the core of it, we want to help you make the imaginative, real. 

Guys today refer to the female that smokes, drinks, has sex and doesn't care too much about what they do- a "Ride or Die". You could not be more wrong! Many, not all, but many of those females will absolutely ride for you, until you die or go to jail. Then its on to the next. The right woman for you will never want or be okay with you putting yourself in any kind of danger -be it drugs, alcoholism, guns, etc. If you are currently in a relationship with a woman that is always talking to you about the people you hang with or the activities you are involved in. I dare you to take a few minutes and think about what she is saying. Think about what could happen if you stay on the path you are in. Is she really nagging you? Or is she worried about you? Is it that she wants you to be great and not settle for the average around you?

Too many of you fellas, are not getting the picture. Your distracted. You guys want quick money, the attention, the temporary love. Some of you , in Gods infinite grace  have been blessed with a woman who is doing her best to help you in life. Help you reach the dreams of a career and family. Dreams of comfort and peace. Dreams of wealth and blessings for generations. BUT YOU PUSH HER AWAY IN YOUR STUPIDITY!!!  Don't think that God won't take back his gift. His love is over her too. He wont allow you to break her because you can't get the memo. So fellas, what can you tell about the woman in your life? What does she see in you? Can you tell she truly loves you?

Love Ya to Peace,

Faith.Loves

Connecting with God outside of "Church"

I often wonder why I have such a powerful connection with God outside of “church”. When I am driving my car to/from work or when I am cleaning/hanging in my room the worship that I have is enough to move mountains. However, if you were to spot me in church on Sunday morning, I’m as quiet as a mouse. Corporate prayer and study has never been my thing. I find to many eyes are doing Gods job. Watching and judging. It’s quite distracting. I know that getting the word is essential to my spiritual health but everything around it, I could do without. I love hearing and having God open my mind to understand his word. I pray that everyone experiences this with God. What I have come to realize is that the “church” is not a building or a gathering. The church is literally every individual. You are your church. If you purposely spend time with God, he can, wants and will reveal wonders of his word to you. I will so say, that it is good to fellowship- Jesus said, where two or three are gathered in my name, I am there with you [Matt 18:20] . But there is something about being alone with just God that is indescribable.  I find that even in the bible Jesus often went away to pray to the father alone, Abraham received the word alone, Moses received the commandments alone, David went against Goliath alone and so on. All alone physically but with God spiritually.

Maybe I have a strange relationship with God. To me, God is not just some figure in the sky or some distant being in my mind. God is real to me. When I speak, I know that he hears and answers. He comforts and protects. He guides and corrects. God is real to me. I guess it’s a good thing after all to have such a powerful connection to God outside of church. Someone once said that church is the climax of your week with God. All week you seek his presence, you worship, praise and pray. You build up so much during the week that when you gather with other fellow believers who have been doing the same, it is an explosion of glory to God on Sunday. Now, unfortunately for me, I haven't quite gotten the Sunday climax thing down. I'm still struggling a bit. Help me pray on this folks! I don't think the church is looking for seat warmers on Sundays. 

Love ya to Peace,

Faith.Loves 

101: Learn how to Love

1 Corinthians 13:4-7

Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.

During the past few months, I have been discovering so much about myself that I had no idea about. Both good and bad things. Things I must change and things I need to strengthen and put forth. As I mentioned before I did a photo-shoot this past weekend " Freedom Filled Faith". I had been running from this season of my life for so long. I always distracted myself with a relationship or work or school. Thank God its not too late. I'm really growing to be so content and at peace in this season. Even when struggles and test come, I know where my strength lies and who my rock is. (Psalms 28:7 & Psalms 18:2)

As you all know, I have prayed and declared love into my life ,that God will bring me to my husband to be. It just dawned on me that God has begun the process already. No, I haven't met anyone nor have I been "talking" "kicking it" with anyone. The process has started with me. I realized I couldn't truly love, trust and help anyone until I can do that for myself. I certainly could not have anyone else attempt to truly love me because I was not in the right state to receive love. I am learning to love myself. No not in an arrogant, selfish, or vain way. But in a way to shows respect and honor to the person God created me to be.

I have to be all that the bible describes love to be, to me. Learning to be patient and kind to myself. Stop criticizing so called flaws. Take time to enjoy being single and wait for Gods best. Learn to not be envious, boastful, arrogant or rude. Appreciate all that I was created to be and help others with it if I can and be thankful for my portion. Trying not to be controlling ( you guys know that's a struggle of mine) and  to be slow to anger. Smile more and be happy. Even when things don't go my way or fail, its okay. I must bear all that I can and leave the rest to Jesus. Believe that yes, I am beautiful and worthy of Godly love and happiness. Continue to hope that truth, trust and good will prevail. I have to endure the changes in my life and know that if I focus on God, I will make it through greater and better.

I am happy guys! I didn't think that I would get here but I'm here. Its been a rough, tough, tearful, prayerful journey. I know that God is still at work in me and changes are still being made in my life but I am going to enjoy this moment and season to the fullest. 

So.... without further ado my shoot " Freedom Filled Faith"
Love ya to Peace,
Faith. Loves

Check out my MUA on Youtube: InnerBeautyOut 
Photographer on IG: _emanphotography
Hair: Rachel B. 

Trap Christian Music???

How do you feel about secular Christian music? I find there are so  many Christian artist venturing out with more music that would fit into the "secular" world. The Lecrae, Eric Campbell, Mali Music etc. Their message is uplifting and about faith but take the words away and you wouldn't know if it was Lil Wayne or E.Campbell.

Now, personally I get it. I'm thinking about the street corner guy that might not want to hear that high pitch, string of runs traditional gospel song. He's not "with all dat". But can you grab his attention with a beat that is familiar to him. Then from the beat he wants to sing or rap along. He begins to listen to the words. Now I imagine at first he's beyond shock that the song is actually about Christ but he is already in from the beat. He learns the song and then may want to understand the lyrics, thus opening his otherwise closed mind to the power of Jesus Christ. I Get It!

On the other hand, if you cannot tell the difference between the world and you something isn't quite right. If two cars pull up and both window are up. One car is blasting the latest Rick Ross and the other Lecrae. I can't hear the lyrics just beat and rhythms. It would be rather difficult to tell who's singing about righteousness and who is singing about cut up pineapples ( don't ask me how I know about Rosey) lol

I'll give you an example here is a new song from Erica Campbell's new album Help 2.0 entitled " I Luh God" ( yes, spelled just like that). At first I was a little taken aback by it. But I must say in my moments where I need a lil crunkness, its nice to have the option of getting hype but not poisoning my soul with crazy lyrics.

Let me know what  you think?
Love ya to Peace,
Faith.Loves

Freedom Filled Faith

 

This past weekend I had a photo shoot celebrating life and where I am today. Everything is far from perfect but when I look back at where God took me from, I cannot help but smile and be filled with joy. Although I am the self proclaimed "Selfie Queen", its has been 5 years since I've taken any kind of professional pictures. I also really wanted to capture this season of my life. Single, happy and filled with so much faith and zeal for the Lord. I'm praying and believing God for my next season to be courtship and marriage. I want to be able to look back at this season and remember allll that God has brought me through, all the prayers,tears, joys and excitement.

I had an absolutely BLAST doing this shoot. Thanks to some amazing friends for helping me pull this off. I love you guys. You know who you are..lol! God Bless!

Thank you:
Hair: Rachel B.
Makeup: InnerBeautyOut
Photography: Eveno Photography
Assistants: Dina, Izzie, K

Love Ya to Peace,
Faith.Loves