From the moment I resurfaced out of the baptism water, I have been anticipating the battles to come. ( I highly dislike surprises). I have been keeping watch and praying for strength. I've also been praying for wisdom, discernment and protection. The past few days its seems the battle has finally truly began. The first hit being my heart and the attempted communication from my ex. The second being a work related issue. I'm going to be very honest with you guys, it has been quite a while but I really cried yesterday. As I prayed and petitioned before God, I couldn't help but cry. However it wasn't so much of a defeated cry, it was a nervous cry. I really don't want to go through this but I whole heartily trust you God, come what may.
See, because I hate surprises, I always have everything planned or at least have an idea about what is going on. Even in these situations, I keep trying to play out different scenarios to prepare myself. But I had to stop thinking and relying on myself. I was trying to draw up a physical battle plan when the fight is spiritual. I wouldn't go as far as saying I doubt God in these problems, but I haven't fully poured my entire faith in him. I realize that God is requiring me to FULLY submit to him. So although, I am scared of possibly losing my job, I have to pray and believe that God will open a better opportunity for me. Though I sometimes struggle with matters of the heart, I believe that God is preparing someone special for me and vice verse. For we are more than conquerors through Christ!
Romans 8: 31:39
See, because I hate surprises, I always have everything planned or at least have an idea about what is going on. Even in these situations, I keep trying to play out different scenarios to prepare myself. But I had to stop thinking and relying on myself. I was trying to draw up a physical battle plan when the fight is spiritual. I wouldn't go as far as saying I doubt God in these problems, but I haven't fully poured my entire faith in him. I realize that God is requiring me to FULLY submit to him. So although, I am scared of possibly losing my job, I have to pray and believe that God will open a better opportunity for me. Though I sometimes struggle with matters of the heart, I believe that God is preparing someone special for me and vice verse. For we are more than conquerors through Christ!
Romans 8: 31:39
31 What, then, shall we say in response to these things? If God is for us, who can be against us? 32 He who did not spare his own Son, but gave him up for us all—how will he not also, along with him, graciously give us all things? 33 Who will bring any charge against those whom God has chosen? It is God who justifies. 34 Who then is the one who condemns? No one. Christ Jesus who died—more than that, who was raised to life—is at the right hand of God and is also interceding for us. 35 Who shall separate us from the love of Christ? Shall trouble or hardship or persecution or famine or nakedness or danger or sword?36 As it is written:
37 No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him who loved us. 38 For I am convinced that neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons,[b] neither the present nor the future, nor any powers, 39 neither height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation, will be able to separate us from the love of God that is in Christ Jesus our Lord.
As I was preparing for baptism last year, my pastors as well as my mom and aunts kept reminding me that because I have decided to public declare my love and faithfulness to God, the devil will come after me more. That troubles will come like never before. But God! He is for his servants and will raise us on high every time. All we need to do is pray and have faith. Please keep me in your prayers as I will do for you all .
Love ya to Peace,
Faith.Loves
Joshua 1:9
" Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the Lord your God will be with you wherever you go.”
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