Lately, I've been struggling with my emotions. My mind and spirit are made up and aligned with God but for some reason my heart, well my heart is still struggling to catch up. I find myself in a repetitive conversation with God about sending me my amazing husband, The One. But this heart, URGH this stupid heart just wont let go of the last guy. I know, I know Time Heals but my patience is wavering.
I mean, do you guys understand? I have completely surrendered my life to God and he has proven over and over again that he will bless me. Some how when it comes to love, I have the hardest time. It makes no sense at all. Logically thinking as a God fearing Christian, I KNOW that whatever good I ask of God through faith and obedience he will give to me. Emotionally I'm struggling. This is so hard. I'm not jealous or envious of other relationships. I am not bitter or sad. Its the weirdest thing. I hope I'm making sense to someone out there.
You know what? I've made up my mind about this situation. I am going to do a fast (of some sort). I will not talk about love for the next 30 days. When I pray in the morning and nights of course I will still pray for my future marriage and family but that will be it. No dwelling on who and where he is or when we will meet. For 30 days my focus will not be on a relationship, men or love.
I have to conquer this emotion. I have to show to myself that God IS greater. I WILL heal no matter what. Psalm 95:3 For the LORD is the great God, the great King above all gods.
How should I check in? We can try Instagram.
Check in with me through Instagram @faith_loves and using #30daysofGodsLove
This is an amazing idea! I'll be praying for you! :)
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